L and I had an interesting conversation last night. I said to him, "We don't need to talk about it all now, and it will probably require multiple conversations, but here's what I'm thinking. We are good friends, we're good parents, and we're lousy partners for each other and we need to figure out what's next." He looked at me and immediately replied that he'd been thinking the same thing.
I felt relief and something like happiness. To be on the same page. To not struggle at this point. To have a place to go forward from. Probably the "D" word that we aren't saying yet.