God is the madwoman in the attic.
I'm camped out on the threshold with my journal, camera, and plenty of snacks.

Sunday, October 02, 2011

gratitude Sunday: morning pages

Jamie Ridler of Jamie Ridler Studios invited her readers to join her in a commitment and a community of morning pages for the month of September.  I've tried morning pages before and it stunk.  I understood the idea but somewhere in the implementation it turned into one more morning obligation and quickly spun itself out from there.  Even so, I wanted to try it again.  To see what I would meet on those pages.  To get writing again.  And this time, I gave myself permission to miss a day or to catch it up in the afternoon as my work schedule and parenting permitted.  It worked!

Here's some of what I gleaned from a semi-regular practice of morning pages:
  • The pages functioned as a mirror, guide, compassionate inquisitor, and giver of good gifts.
  • They nudged me to take the same boldness, assertiveness, methodical-ism, and un-attached-ness that I'm developing in my job and apply it to my writing.
  • Reminded me about what I care about, beyond my immediate family.  Things like returning to Quaker meeting, reaching out to friends, checking out Venus Hill, book binding, meditation, and painting.
  • Showed me the circuitous route I took to this place in my life and the choices, the work and investment and reinvention, that still remains.  
  • Exorcised a distracting fantasy about my life and showed me what I want and can do.
  • Anchored me in myself - boundaries, direction, desires - before the day began with all the pull from others - son, husband, boss, coworkers - for my time, attention, effort, thinking, compassion, and direction.  
  • Presented a number of topics and ideas to dig into, study, write about. 
I am grateful and will continue the practice to further flush out and flesh out what these mornings hold.

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